If this is true, I think I need help... lol

Seduction, Love, and Vampires

I have graduated from high school, and I have enrolled in the College of Saint Benedict.  Oh spiffy, right?  I work as a hostess at a rather nice restaurant.  It's okay, because I get money.  I really wanted to work as a journalist at my local newspaper, but they gave the internship to someone else.  I saw Cars last night.  Adorable movie.

Writing is harder for me now.  I don't know why, maybe it is because I haven't tried to write anything in so long.  I miss it.  Next poem I write, I'll post on here. 

I've been dreaming a lot lately.  I know that isn't too odd, but what I dream is true, but I just don't know it yet.  Freaky, but I think I am.  A Freak.  :P  Weird and unbelievable, but it's true!  Oh yes, and I am eighteen now!  Legal, ;).  haha...  I have been hit on so many times by creepy guys it is unbelievable, and a bit scary.  I didn't go to the street dance because of what happened last year, and also, it was above the city bar!  I have no idea why drunk guys flirt with me so much.

JULY 9TH will be amazing.  You'll never guess who I'm going to go see.  AFI!!  Hell yes.  The new CD, decemberunderground, is amazing.  I adore it completely.  Thinking about getting a tattoo with a few lyrics. 

Love Like Winter is a fabulous song.  Gorgeous. 
Endlessly She Said.  Beautiful.
The Interview is also a wonderful addiction.
37mm as well.

I adore you, AFI. <3  Sooo much.

I need new clothes.  It seems as if all I have in my wardrobe are black shirts that I've had for years or work clothes [ie.  long sleeves, not tight, granny clothes].  Someone give me a good, cheap place to shop.  I need to save money for college.  And I also need to start looking into loans.  I'm poor.  =(  But I work a lot next week.  Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Saturday, Sunday.  All night shifts.  But this is the first week in a looong time that I get a Friday off.  My sister and I might go see The Lake House.  :]

Bought a book yesterday.  The Vampire's Seduction by Raven Hart.  My kind of book.  It's alright so far, although quite sexual.  But all Vampire books are.  I also found yet another erotic horror book.  They sound quite intriguing.  Maybe I'll buy one someday.  Twilight is still stuck in my head.  Beautiful, awesome, spectacular book.  Read it, if you haven't already.  By Stephanie Meyer. 
So enough of my rambling, I guess. 

Until night.

Currently Listening decemberunderground By AFI Love Like Winter see related

.cherish me.

WARNING! 
Beware of bad mood and tiredness.  Please read at your own risk.

I went book shopping today.  Bought Club Dead by Charlaine Harris.  After my long, eventful, terrorizing trip to Perham.  Drove my sister's friend home, and this friend failed to tell me the road to her house was shit.  Mud, water, ice and slush.  I almost crashed into the ditch so many times, and not to mention what the jeep looked like after.  Green was turned into brown.  Seriously.  And they didn't even have the book I wanted at Pamida! *tear*

While reading my book, I thought of something.  Women like to feel wanted.  Loved.  Cherished.  Desired.  Anita Blake - Loved by all of the men in her life.  Merry Gentry - Plenty of love here. (Laurell K. Hamilton)  Kelley Armstrong has love and caring in her books.  Haunted, Bitten.  Twilight by Stephanie Meyer.  Maybe it's just the intimate relationships in the stories.  And they make me feel lonely... I don't know. 

As you can probably tell, I have somewhat of an obsession with vampires...

I found a book of Erotic Horror Stories.  How entertaining is that?  Should have boughten it, but I couldn't afford it.  Needed to save five freaking dollars for a car wash.  Grrr...

Choir calls to me after school tomorrow.  Need to practice my duet for contest.  Like I'll make it to state.  Huh.  I hope it's fun though.  Singing is lovely.  Band calls as well.  At 6pm, to play for the basketball game.  Oh joy! 

It's Snow Days this week at school, so each day is a different theme.  Monday was Retro Prom Day, Tuesday was Inside-Out Day, Wednesday was Biker/Occupation Day, and Tomorrow is Staff Dress Like Students/Students Dress Like Staff Day.  I don't think I'll dress up...  Friday is Spirit Day, but it's a given.  It's always Spirit Day on Friday.

On a happy note, I wrote my first song on guitar!  Yayness!  It's pretty gothy and... bad.  But I made it, so that alone makes it cool.

Maybe I'll post a clip of it if I can.

I have to go.
Past 1 am.  Must sleep.

Happy Hauntings.
Sweet Dreams.

Cassiann

Currently Reading Club Dead (Southern Vampire Mysteries) By Charlaine Harris see related

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.5
Mind:	6.3
Body:	5.9
Spirit:	8.8
Friends/Family:	5.7
Love:	2.1
Finance:	5.2
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

http://www.monkeyquiz.com/life/rate_my_life.html

Curious Faerie You are the Curious Faerie. You're always wondering
what's going to happen next, what's happened
before, that sometimes you miss what's going
on now. You can almost always be found with
your nose deep inside your latest book.
Wings: Black and dark blue
Power: Knowledge
Sexual appeal: You are a bookworm; sometimes
obsessively. But luckily for you, many guys
think this is very cute seeing as you can
sometimes be oblivious to what's going on
around you when you're wrapped up in a book.
Just don't let him talk you into doing his
homework for him.
What you look for in a guy: You aren't
really picky about what guy you have. You
want to discover as much about him as you
possibly can; no matter who your man is, as
long as he respects you, you will definitely
be a very close couple.

What kind of Dark Faerie are You? (Girls only with beautiful pics)
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Currently Listening Underworld: Evolution By Original Soundtrack see related

I've been accepted into four colleges.
Concordia
Minnesota State - Moorhead
College of Saint Benedict
University of St. Thomas

I've also been offered scholarships.
Concordia - $7,000 (renewable for four years)
St. Benz - $8,000 (renewable for four years)
St. Thomas - $5,000 (renewable for four years)

Excellent, huh?
Now I just need to choose where to go.  And I'm also sending an application to University of Minnesota - Morris...  Someone help me decide where to go.

I have to wake up at 6am tomorrow.  For Speech!  I adore Speech so much.  It's so weird since I'm such a shy person.  I guess meeting people is fun for me.  Although I'd rather read a book then be at a huge thing with tons of people I don't know. :P  My speech is about Music, titled "Thank You Lullabies."  Completely a rough draft, but everyone keeps telling me I shouldn't edit it.  Maybe I will after a few meets.  Performed today in front of JR. Kindergardeners.  They were cute, but extremely annoying.  One of the boys burped and I smiled at him.  The boy sitting next to him decided he wanted to burp too so I would look at him.  I thought it was so cute.  Little kids can be such pains, but sometimes, they're adorable.

I was invited to a party, but I decided I shouldn't go.  Not very safe and probably filled with alcohol and drugs.  Ugh.  Nothing too spiffy then being arrested by the cops for underage drinking and illegal drug use.  Sounds like fun, doesn't it?  Not for me.  My dad keeps telling me he isn't going to pay for my college.  I'm so broke, it isn't funny, and I can't find a job at all.  Pathetic.  I had an interview at a grocery store and they never even called me back!  Bastards.

Ever had an enemy you don't know how you got?  Well, I have one of those, and it seems as if all they wish to do is hurt me.  Like someone always having to tear down someone else to make themselves feel better.  I think it's completely pathetic.  I mean, sure, hate me all you want, just, please, insult me directly towards me.  :P  Grrr... 

Should I spend my money on this dress: 

http://www.arsenicfashions.com/blackvelvetlaceupdress.html

or not?

Off to sleep,
Goodnight!

<3 Cassi